"No, I just- I don't know what to do. I don't- I don't want to leave," Her face twisted unpleasantly, and she's trying to figure out what she's doing, what she's thinking. "Levi, I- I don't know what to do, I just-" She doesn't know what to say, she doesn't know how to fix this, it's just... it's a mess. Everything's a mess, and no one can fix it, no one can make it better.

"I'm a bad person," her voice breaks as she says it. "I know that. I know that, I know that what I did was wrong, but- you don't..." She doesn't know if he'd ever understand, but she tries to explain anyway. "I have never been able to just- have a life, to do what I wanted. I was in med school, I didn't want to be a doctor. I- my leg is because I had to work, and-" She shakes her head, her voice is pitchy mess, and she's just- she's a mess.

There's so much that Levi doesn't know about her, that she hasn't told him because she's scared and ashamed of it. She hasn't even told Spencer or Joel all of it, and she lives with them, but she doesn't know what to do, now.