"No, Raleigh, it's... you understand that things like that are necessary," he says. "Everyone does. It's logical and it makes sense and I can usually be logical when it comes to the sorts of things most people don't want to discuss." He's always been able to detach and look at things from a distance, but he's also never had anyone in his life like Spencer and Raleigh until now. Cosette and Lara had gotten closer to him than anyone had in ten years, but he knows he wasn't the person closest to them, even if they'd been the ones closest to him. If something had happened to them, there are others who would deal with these sorts of things and he would be left to grieve for his friends.

When people are family, it's different. He's become responsible suddenly, for making sure things work out properly. If something were to happen to Raleigh or Spencer, there would be no quietly grieving alone in his bookstore. There would be things to do, responsibilities, work he'd have to get done and so he understands the necessity. But it still feels terrible.

"But when it comes to you, when it comes to Spencer... logic isn't easy to come by," he says. "It's not the same anymore, that's all. I think you should take the letter, though. I think... if you want, I can help you go through legal channels to make sure something like that is done properly in case anything does happen to you. I need to revise my own will and life insurance policies soon anyway, I can help you." But he doesn't want to have that letter anymore. It just hurts too much.