She doesn't think she will ever forgive herself for breaking that glass.
She's pleading with him to help her, not because she needs it (even though she does), but because it's all she can think of, and it's all she's got. It's all she's got, to say she needs his help, and she's praying for Joel as she feels her own panic twisting up inside of her but she won't let it, she won't let the blood and the pain take her back there because she's got to be here for him.
"Just stay, just stay, that's all I need, we talked about it, to not be alone, remember? I just- I just need you here, because- because I can't-" She's shaking, she's shaking as he leans his head in her lap and her good hand finds his hair, it strokes his hair and she closes her eyes tightly as she prays - prays - for Joel.
"I know. I know, sweetheart, it'll stop. Everything's find, I promise, everything's okay. Everything's okay. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, I won't- I won't... I'm sorry." She's terrified, she's terrified and she hears the door open distantly but she keeps talking, her voice cracking as she prays that it's Joel. "I'm okay, you're okay, I promise-"
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She's pleading with him to help her, not because she needs it (even though she does), but because it's all she can think of, and it's all she's got. It's all she's got, to say she needs his help, and she's praying for Joel as she feels her own panic twisting up inside of her but she won't let it, she won't let the blood and the pain take her back there because she's got to be here for him.
"Just stay, just stay, that's all I need, we talked about it, to not be alone, remember? I just- I just need you here, because- because I can't-" She's shaking, she's shaking as he leans his head in her lap and her good hand finds his hair, it strokes his hair and she closes her eyes tightly as she prays - prays - for Joel.
"I know. I know, sweetheart, it'll stop. Everything's find, I promise, everything's okay. Everything's okay. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, I won't- I won't... I'm sorry." She's terrified, she's terrified and she hears the door open distantly but she keeps talking, her voice cracking as she prays that it's Joel. "I'm okay, you're okay, I promise-"