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Raleigh Harper / Emily Watkins ([personal profile] callmeemily) wrote 2015-05-28 11:21 pm (UTC)

"No, I know, I do, I know you were there, you just weren't in the beginning, and I-" She stops, and closes her eyes for a second as she takes a deep breath, before-- well. Before Joel asks her if she's seen a therapist, and Raleigh looks away.

"I went when the stuff happened to my leg, and a lot of it I just sort of... re-used when that all went down, and I'm mostly okay now. I just-- I mean, it's finding someone who'd believe me, and I think I'm mostly okay? But I guess-- I guess maybe. Maybe, especially if- if people just keep getting... grabbed." She doesn't mean to bring up Spencer and Davin. With both of them, and Joel as well, she's trying act like things are mostly normal, since that seemed to be what Spencer and Davin both wanted.

"But I know you were there, thank you for being there, I'm just a little rattled because it's just as possible that you wouldn't have been walking down the street, you know? So. Yeah." She smiles just a little, and looks down at Oscar, because she gets why Joel asked if she's talked to someone, she knows he's trying to help, but now she's wondering even if she's doing mostly okay. She thinks she is; she's got far more good days than bad, she doesn't have nightmares hardly ever any longer, she can be alone without being terrified, but she's worried that it's just her trying to convince herself, maybe.

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